So this layout, as you can read, is a tribute to anger management. As people close to me know music is a very big part of my life. It affects my mood and attitude towards everything. Since I've been feeling out of sorts and pretty ticked off lately what better way to vent. That's what a blog is for right? Of course!! So everything is pretty fitting. I'm starting to feel better already...haha.
What's been going on.... Well work is the same. I finally got the courage to ask for my floating holiday. Of course I asked for them consecutively. EKK. But hey I don't get a normal weeks vacation like everyone else there and good god I'm 2nd on the totem poll. I've been there for exactly 2 years and 4 months. I deserve a vacation from that hell. The boss should have been in today to read the "written notice". I haven't got a call from her yet to bitch me out so not sure if she even came in or what, typical. OK THAT JUST SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME. I soon as I wrote "came in or what" my frickin phone rang and my heart jumped. I was sure it was her. But nope it's just Wow Way wanting their money.
ANYWAYS... *takes a deep breath* See I'm just on edge about everything. I know everyone has these times in their life but come on mine is never ending. It's so bad I'm on blood pressure meds at 30, wtf? I need some anti-depressants but last time they put me on them for my panic attacks it really screwed me up. I had to stop. So I'm afraid to start on them again.
My daughters father is going on vacation, again, ugh! That means my mom and I are going to have to toss her back and forth so we can work. I hate when he does this. This man can't even hold a job because they are always going on vacation. WTF? It just doesn't make sense but I guess that's what happens when you get with someone who's 10 years younger than you. It's sickening really. To top that off this girl has no class, is a druggie and is just plain stupid. Like OMG, I smoke pot and I'm a hippy. GEEZ!! I guess they are made for each other though. hahaha.
So ok The 4th of July, what 4th? I didn't have a holiday cause I had to work a split shift. The rookie girl opposite of me, being there only 2 months, has every weekend off. See this is why I'm enraged. Why do I get treated like crap? I work harder than anyone in there. Whatever. Plus on top of this, this girl has been called down at least 5 time for making the trustees (inmates) do her work. Which is a total no-no for us.
Hmm so what else... The bills are never ending. Gas prices are at $4.00 a gallon. Everyone has their hand out. People wonder why hard workers are walking into their work and mowing down their bosses and co-workers with guns. They are tired and fed up as I am. That kind of thing just happened a few weeks ago just right over the bridge from us in Henderson, KY. Guy walks in and shoots his supervisor and 3 or 4 (what I'm sure are) illegal Mexicans. Hello, these places are hiring them cause they will work for dirt. It's fuckin sickening. I don't blame the guy at all. America is a real shitty place to live anymore. Nothing is as it seems or should be. And I'm fed up....
I guess I need to post something. I've been so tired from work and everything else that I haven't wanted to do anything especially blog. Things are stressful right now. We were given an extention on our lease so that we could move and we haven't found anything and the 20th is fast approaching. Plus on top of that were having to pay rent here which went up $50 this lease and then pay deposit and first month somewhere else. Yeah right! Ugh! Then all the crap going on at work. I ended up getting a RA (room attendant) fired cause of stuff he tried to pull last weekend. He was a rude and dumb little boy that needed to grow up and that took a position like he had to his head. Your not boss or god for that matter. Geez!! The world or at least the United States is a frickin mad house right now. A complete joke. Gas prices, forecloserues, greedy banks, globel warming, tornados, earthquakes, it's so hot we could fry ourselves on the sidewalk, black presidental candiates, rising cost of everything, sucky jobs that don't pay shit and just the fact that no one cares. It's all coming to a head. I bet the suicide rate is at an all time high right now and will continue to soar. It's just a really sad time for everything right now and nobody is wanting to do a thing about it. Us hard working people are sick and tired of being sick and tired. Freedom my ass.
Sorry guys I will get around soon to commenting back. Again sorry.
WOOOHOOO!!!! I am so frickin happy he won. He so deserves this. He's only the second contestant that I've rooted for the whole way. First was Kelly Clarkson. This guy will make it. I'm sure of it. I heard the exclusive studio version of "Time of my Life" on the radio this morning and I love it. (ps. I just added it to my radio blog, first song) He can sing anything.
Well Yay! Mr. David Cook made it to the finale. I'm so happy for him. I really want him to win but then again I would rather him get the contract that's waiting for him if he doesn't. He deserves to be able to do what he wants with his music rather than be told by American Idol. So... I guess we'll have to see. Either way I'm buying his album.
As I said in my last blog life lately has been a complete blur. I find myself living in tv and daydreams wishing that was my life instead of the one I'm in. No matter how hard I try, no matter how drastic of a change I make nothing changes but yet seems to get worse day by day. I get treated like dirt by my boss at work. Even though I've been there for 2 years I still get treated like the new person by her. I've stuck around putting up with her bullshit and lies so long that she should be kissing my ass. Then I feel like I have no real days off. Then on top of that my x tries to make me feel like shit about my daughter all the time when it's him that puts his alcohol and drug problem ahead of everything else. He lies so much anymore he confuses himself with his own lies. Then all the crap I have to deal with at home. I have never felt comfortable. Everythings a secert it seems. It's two seperate worlds. I don't go anywhere or do anything. Having friends is an absolute joke because of how it always ends up. Everything I say is bitching but if I don't talk somethings wrong. I need someone who gets me and doesn't judge me about how I express my feelings or what I want in my life. So what I'm negative all the time. Everything around me is negative what do you expect. Until there is a massive change in everyone around me there will be no change in me. I can not change others. If I change more than I have I will get stepped on more than I am now. People take advantage of nice people so why be one. I'm as nice as legally allowed anymore. Sure it's not the way I wanna be but what choice do I really have. Anyways, I can talk till I'm blue in the face. Nothing is going to change. So here I go off into TV land...
So new layout!! The lovely David Cook. Who in my opinion is the winner already. He will go further than any other contestant. He's another Chris Daughtry like everyone says although I think David can sing much, much better than Chris. He has the voice of an angel and he is so diverse. This guy deserves this. Syesha and David A. stand no chance. This year I will be voting my ass off. The last time I voted was for Kelly. And to tell the truth no one has deserved it since her until now. David is someone everyone can relate to. He's not a cheesy teenie bopper that can't hold a conversation and is trying to get through this competition being fake cause he's daddy told him to. Listen to him sing, I mean it sounds like he's constipated and has a cold every week. *holds nose and says* Hi, I'm David. David A. makes me so sick. I can barely watch him sing or see his face on that show. UGH!! I really hope Simon sabatoges him again this week with something about his dad or the fact that only 12 and 13 year old girls are voting for him. Anyways, David Cook is the American Idol, period!!!
Ok so now we have to wait till August to see "The Hills". I wanna know what happens now. It's always something with these people. No matter how much drama they have though I'd rather have their life as I was saying earlier. All the girls are so pretty and so rich. Who wouldn't want to have their lives?!
I need a vacation. Yeah like my boss will ever let me have that. God I'm so tired of life...
I swear my days are a blur anymore. That simply means all work and no fun. It's been that way for at least 2 years.
Well I thought I would post something since I haven't in a long while. Plus I really need a new layout. I'm so tired of this one. I need some inspiration. Hmmm...
Well American Idol I think is going badly again this year. Kicking Carly off for one. Then they make a big deal about David Cook then again he's on the back burner to the nasty other David kid. I personally think he's boring and blah. I think they should make American Idol to where you have to be at least 16 to vote. If that was the case this year David A. would have already been long gone. Anyhow, just my opinion. I have to agree with one of my comments though. If David Cook doesn't win he has a sure record deal anyhow and he will be able to do whatever he wants. And of course he will sell a trillion more albums than little freak boy anyhow. So OK OK, I listen to Booker and Sarah at Hot 96 every Wednesday and Thursday just to hear what they have to say about AI. I love Sarah's comment about David A. Here's what she said this morning. Take a watch at this CLICK HERE
Ok moving on. So it seems Hilary won Indiana. I am so frickin happy. However there are still a few states left to vote. You fricking idiots better vote Hilary or your gonna have a fake as motherfucker for a canadate. AND THEN... people are gonna end up voting Republican again. WTF are you stupid idiots thinking?? GEEZ. I told Michael that if Obama/Osama wins I'm moving to Canada. Period. I'm so sick of the US and the way people think it's unreal. I think we need to somewhat resort back to the 40's or 50's way of thinking at this point. This is the US not ...... ok I'm gonna shut up now before I get nasty.
